bump date. 26 weeks 3 days

Weeks: 26 weeks 3 days

Gender: a third little princess :) I can't wait.

Name: secret until she's born ;)

Cravings: my cravings are different everyday.  Salad with ranch, burgers, chickfila, livermush, yogurt with granola and sweet tea which has been constant since the second trimester.

Maternity clothes: sometimes

Showing yet?: yasssss.

Belly button in or out?: In.

Sleep?: eh not the best but not horrible. have to wake and pee 1-2 times a night and I get uncomfortable easier now.

Stretch marks: not yet.  I have been using some avocado oil and I'm hoping it does the trick.

Baby size: about 14 inches and 2 pounds.

Movement: yes. especially in the mornings and at night.  and she got down to some Motzart this morning :)

Most looking forward to: our 4D ultrasound next week.

Most nervous about:  not much of anything.

Nursery: it's in the works.  can't wait to see it all finished.

I can't wait to: hold her and kiss her.

So I was gonna do one of these every week but for a long time not much changed.  I have started feeling a lot better and actually started showing so I wanted to update.



Weeks: 17 weeks 3 days

Gender: not sure. we find out in about a week and a half. can't.wait.

Name: Have names picked out for each gender but we like to keep it a surprise.

Cravings: cottage cheese. avocado. tomato. sushi and sweet tea (which I limit due to the sugar and caffeine)

Maternity clothes: I have worn some just because they're comfy.

Showing yet?: a tiny little baby bump.

Belly button in or out?: In.

Sleep?: I am already starting the wake up and am busting to pee thing, but other than that sleep is about like usual.

Stretch marks: not yet.  I never got tons with the girls so heres hoping they stay minimal again.

Baby size: Baby is about 5-6 inches 

Movement: I started feeling tiny little flutters around the 17 week mark if I'm sitting very still.

Most looking forward to: the gender ultrasound.

Most nervous about:  not really anything.

Nursery: We started talking about paint color and themes a couple weeks ago

I can't wait to: Find out the gender!!!!!!! and have the reveal party for our family.

Bumpdate. Baby Roland #3

Weeks: 9 weeks 4 days.

Gender: not sure yet.  Steven wants a boy so bad.  I do too, but am fine either way.  Healthy baby is all that matters.

Name: We have had names picked out for either gender for a while now.  Both shall stay a secret ;)

Cravings: I am beyond nauseous 99% of the day.  But I have been craving lots of oranges/orange juice.  

Maternity clothes: Not yet.  I hardly get out of my pajamas these days though.  Have I mentioned I feel awful?

Showing yet?: Not really.  I usually lose weight in the beginning of pregnancy because of the nausea.  Sometimes at the end of the day theres a little baby pooch but nothing big.

Belly button in or out?: In.

Sleep?: Sometimes it takes me a bit to actually get to sleep.  This time around I am most nauseous at night so I just have to lay really still and take deep breaths and eventually I fall asleep.  Journi still cosleeps and nurses throughout the night though so technically I haven't slept well in years.

Stretch marks: not yet.  I never got tons with the girls so heres hoping they stay minimal again.

Baby size: a grape.  Such a tiny little blessing.  I love you so much already my little grape nugget.

Movement: Not so much.  Occasionally I will get this hard ball type thing around where my uterus is and if I touch it, it will disappear.  Not sure what it is but they say the more kids you have, the earlier on you can feel different types of movement. 

Most looking forward to: Feeling better again.  I am so tired and nauseous all the time.  All for a good cause though which is what I keep telling myself.  

Most nervous about: I guess the birth.  I went all natural with Journi and I would really love doing that again, but I can't stop thinking about how painful it was. 

Nursery: Let's find out the gender first then I will start pinning ideas ;)
I can't wait to: Find out the gender!!!!!!! Are we destined for tons of sparkles and bows or will daddy get his son? (I feel like Daddy is gonna make me do this over and over until he does get his son.)

Check back in next week for another update.  I turn a new week every Tuesday so hopefully thats when most of my posts will be.  I will also start including a picture with the post so we can watch baby grow.  

Lots of love and babies

Katy

10 facts about me

I haven't blogged in a seriously hot minute.  Moving cross country, my princess starting a new school, painting our house, getting everything set up...I just got overwhelmed and put blogging on the back burner.

I was tagged by Baylee to do a 10 facts about me tag....so here it goes.

one.  I am very particular about the food my family eats.  The majority of things we buy are organic/non gmo.  McDonalds does not get Roland money.

two. Growing up I always had humongous career plans for myself.  Now a career is the least of my worries.  Raising our kids and taking care of my family is EVERYTHING. 

three. I have a serious cleaning problem.  end.of.story.

four. the last two and a half years my husband was in active duty navy... he was deployed for a year and a half total.  Missed my entire pregnancy with Journi.  He saw her for 6 days after she was born and then didn't see her again until she was 3 months.  You could literally look at me and I would burst into tears. I am; however, so proud of all he did for this country and our family.

five.  I got married when I was 18.  One month after high school graduation. This year we will celebrate our 5 year anniversary.   

six. I will take converse over heels any.day.  

seven. I love a good movie or tv show.  Did somebody say Scandal?

eight. I am hair and makeup obsessed. 

nine. I love the south.  Living in California for a couple years was truly a blessing, but my heart belongs below the mason dixon line. A girl needs her sweet tea, big bows, southern accents and the occasional piece of friend chicken.

ten. I love going to coffee shops.  Going out to get coffee is just one of those simple things that make me happy.

Girls Birth Stories.

Stevie 

I was 16 when I got pregnant with Stevie, 17 when I had her.  A senior in high school.  

I was due September 9, 2008.  

I passed my due date and was scheduled to be induced September 17, 2008.

41 weeks 1 day.

We got to the hospital early that Wednesday morning around 5 am.  By the time they got me in the room, the iv in, pitocin going and all that jazz it was around 6 am. (I hate needles and despised the iv.  I was throwing up and crying while I got it-what a baby, I know)

With this being my first baby, I had no idea how just completely AWFUL pitocin was.  I went from 0 contractions to full blown I am gonna pass out contractions in like thirty minutes. and they were coming BACK-TO-BACK!!!!!

The doctor that delieverd Stevie I had NEVER met.

He came in and broke my water which was extremely painful and pretty much told me "YOU'RE GETTING AN EPIDURAL."

My entire pregnancy I had said I didn't want an epidural.  I didn't like anything about it, but after 5 hours of labor without it I decided to get it.  I wasn't dialating, and I had to keep getting oxygen and the pitocin turned off because it was causing Stevie breathing problems.

I was completely terrified to get the epidural.  I am a WORRIER. and I was so scared I was gonna move or something while they put it in.
After much worry, it was successful and I was pain free.

I started dialating rather fast after I got the epidural and boy was I feeling better.

A couple more hours passed and I was 10 cm.

My mom and Steven were in the room while I had Stevie.

I pushed for about 25 minutes (and while I was crowning Steven looked like he was going to pass out) 
Something weird but interesting:
The nurse let me feel Stevie's head while she was crowning.
It was amazing and something I will never forget.
at 5:04 pm our beautiful baby girl was born.

Steven got to cut her umbilical cord and then they handed her to me.

While I was holding her the nurse mentioned she was a weird color and took her from me.  She wasn't breathing, but praise God she started and was completely fine.  Other than a slight fever.
They gave her back to me and I was in love.

STEVIE LAYNE ROLAND

Wednesday

9/17/2008

6 LBS 13 OZ 19 1/2 IN. LONG

Lots of people came to visit our sweet girl.  Since I hadn't eaten all day I woofed down some McDonalds right after I had her and immediately threw it up. (thats my sisters favorite story). haha.

I did nurse Stevie at the hospital (and for about a week after) but it ultimately just didn't work for us.  Looking back now I truly wish I would have tried harder and stuck with it.

We had to stay at the hospital for two nights since Stevie had the fever when she was born.

The first night my mom stayed with us.  Stevie slept so peacefully and hardly woke.

The next night it was just Steven, Stevie and myself.  She cried and stayed awake all night.  We were bouncing, feeding, snuggling, and cuddling and she finally fell asleep with her mama and slept next to me for the rest of the night.

Even though I was young, I was SO happy and excited to be a mommy.  

Our first trip to Church as a family.

 my favorite pic of her :)

Journi

I was 21 when I got pregnant.

turned 22 16 days after I had her.

My first due date was 3/8/2013.

It was changed to 3/21/2013.

But since Steven was on the other side of the world on deployment, I was induced at 39 weeks to ensure he would be there. 3/14/2013.

Steven flew home on Wed. March 13, 2013.  I was 38 weeks 6 days.  Stevie and I went and got him from the airport, went out to eat, visited his family and headed to my parents house.  

After we went to sleep I woke up around 2 am with contractions.  They came regularly every 7-8 minutes and boy were they hurting.  I didn't really get any more sleep so around 4 am we got up, got ready and headed to the hospital.  (I was scheduled to be there at 5 am anyways.)

We checked in at the ER and walked up to the room.  I handled the iv a little better this time and they started the pitocin.  (oh boy)  

Thankfully this time I didn't need as much since I was already in labor naturally.

*side note*

I think it's so awesome she literally waited on her daddy to come home and immediately came on her own when he did.

I was still having regular contractions and I was 4 cm.

I didn't want an epidural with this labor and delivery either, but figured I would be in labor all day since it took about 11 hours with Stevie.

Since I was in pain I opted for a small pain reliever.  

I was sticking strong to my no epidural this go around.

The second I got that medicine I felt like I had a fifth of tequila. 

I was talking crazy, giggling, acting like a complete drunk.  I even asked the nurse if she put vodka in there.  

I'm not sure why but while that medicine was in my system my contractions like completely stopped.  The medicine didn't last long anyways, it completely wore off  and at 8:15 am the doctor came to check me and break my water.  I was 5 cm.

He told me if I wanted an epidural I needed to let him know in the next 10-15 min.

By 8:20 I was in the WORST pain I have EVER felt in my life.  I wanted to scream and cry.  At 8:25 I told the nurse I wanted the epidural (I know I know-I'm caving again.)

She checked me and I was 8 cm-it was too late for an epidural.

I think my heart dropped to my stomach.  I had to do this.  All natural.  Feeling EVERY.SINGLE.THING.

I went to the bathroom and while I was sitting on the toilet it helped relieve some of the pain, but the nurse was adament that I get up.
I specifically remember her telling me "we can't have this baby in the toilet."

So I hobbled back to the bed and sat on the side.  Something about sitting with my legs down made it feel SOME better.

I literally can't even begin to describe the pain that I was in.  It can't be put into words.  

She checked me around 8:45 and i was 10 cm but I had a TINY bit of cervix left so she had me lay completely flat on my left side.

OH.EM.GEE.

I don't know what in the WORLD laying on my left side did but it was the WORST pain you could possibly imagine.  I literally tried to get out of the bed and leave.  I'm not sure where in the heck I was going, but HONEY I was getting the HECK up outta there.

She made me lay back down and it was time to push.

(only Steven was in the room during this delivery.  We wanted that moment together since we hadn't seen each other in 8 1/2 months.)

Lawd have mercy y'all pushing a baby out with no pain meds...I literally thought I was going to die.  I kept telling myself there is no way I can do this.  It just can't happen.  And it absolutely terrified me that it HAD to happen.  My body HAD to go through this.  It felt like everything inside of me was going to break and fall out.  I was screaming to high heavens too.  I just know everyone on the hall heard me. (I even had a nurse tell me after I had her, "Well I think everyone on the hall is awake now.)

The doctor told me to quit screaming.  That I couldn't push as good and hard while screaming.

um...excuse me sir.  That's impossible.  

I'm not even a loud kind of person...but I seriously could NOT stop yelling.  

That was the only release I had for all the pain I was going through.

Thankfully I pushed for less than 5 minutes and she was here.

9:00 am

They immediately put her on my stomach and I just remember looking at her and saying "hey baby!!!!!"

JOURNI GRACE ROLAND

Thursday

3/14/2013

7 LBS 8 OZ. 22 1/4 IN. LONG

Journi wouldn't stop crying when she was first born but finally settled down.  While she was coming out the cord was wrapped around her neck.  Thankfully the doctor was able to just slip it over and there were no problems.  He had to cut the umbilical cord but Steven got to cut the rest while she was on the table. 

I nursed her, and though she didn't quite know how to latch at first, she got it down pat and we have been going strong ever since.

We only had to stay one night with Journi.  She was awake a lot throughout the night but not crying at all.  Just starring around.  Taking in this great big world.

By the next day we were headed home.

All ready to go home.

                             

her first stroller ride.

After just six days Steven had to go back on deployment.  It was such a hard time for me.  I missed him so much.  I hated him missing so much with the girls.  I wanted him there and I literally felt like a piece of me was missing.  For like the next week you could just look at me, or say his name and I would burst into tears. 

Thankfully he's home now and our family is complete.  

They are my world.

*necessary to mention, I delivered both of our girls in the same exact room at the hospital.

Confessional Friday

Confessional Friday Link up with Leslie @ A Blonde Ambition.


1. I confess that I am SO tired of staying in hotels.  I feel like we have been stuck in hotels forever.  I hate living out of a bag and am too OCD and weird to unpack all of our stuff into the drawers and closets here.  I am trying to just be thankful that we have the hotel to stay in while we wait on our house to be ready.  No more negative nancy ;)

2. I confess that I will probably have another iced chai today.  I have literally gotten one every day this week.  (except for Monday.)  I used to be a Starbucks queen.  Now I'm a Port City Java Queen.  They make it with almond milk. oh.em.gee

3. I confess that I really miss watching Gossip Girl on Netflix.  All of our stuff is somewhere? with the movers.  Not really sure where but I miss indulging in my fav shows.  

4.  I confess that I am very happy with Stevie's new school.  She really loves it and I do too.  She was even bummed that the weekend is coming up.  So thankful that she is happy there and making new friends.

5. I confess that I am DYING to change my hair.  I have been for like 7 months but refused to pay California prices.  I have a new idea in my head every day but can't seem to decide on one.  Do I keep it long or chop it off? keep it brown or add heavy highlights? ombre? red? I just don't know but I'm bored with it.

Thats all for now lovies.

Wednesday Wine-Down

Our life has literally taken a 180 these past couple weeks.  So let me just break it down for ya.

We had initially planned to leave San Diego February 11th but Stevie had a Valentines performance at school on the 12th and really didn't wanna miss that so we stayed until the 14th.

(also on the 12th we had people come pack up our house.  oh.em.gee can you say stressed.  I was not a fan of having someone else pack up my things.  I like knowing where EVERYTHING is at all times.)

The 13th we just got the rest of our things in order (this was also Stevie's last day of school here.) 

Goodbye Navy!!!!!

One last stop at our favorite Starbucks in SD.

Side note: Leaving San Diego was a very bittersweet thing for our family.  It had truly grown to be "home" to us.  Stevie was very upset about leaving her school, home, and friends.  It was an emotional thing for me as well.  I didn't wanna leave our house, and all the things San Diego has to offer..... but we felt like this move was the best thing for us.

Okay so the 14th was an absolutely CRAZY day.  We flew out of San Diego at 6 am and were supposed to be at our destination by 9 that night.  Well after our flight in San Francisco was delayed by a couple hours, we missed our connecting flight in Chicago to Charlotte.  ( I think that flight may have been canceled anyways because of all the snow)

I was expecting to fly out Saturday morning but they didn't reschedule us until SUNDAY at 9pm.  After multiple lines, phone calls and inner meltdowns we finally just accepted the fact  that we were stuck in Chicago until Sunday.  And even though we were stuck in a hotel we had a lot of fun just lounging around together as a family. 

Goodbye San Diego

The girls last pics in SD.

Walking to the plane and Journi's first time flying. (2/14/2014)

Journi in the San Fran airport.  (11 months on this day.)

Stevie's "I'm so mad we are stuck in Chicago" faces

Finally headed home.

We spent the next couple days at my parents house and had a huge family gathering  which was a lot of fun.

We headed for the coast the next day in search of a home.  After not finding anything and absolutely wanting to give up we found the PERFECT house for us.  A HUGE fenced in back yard, a patio, a front porch, a long driveway,  a big front yard, 3 bedrooms, 2 bath, in a nice development and less than a mile from the perfect school for Stevie.  My heart was so so happy.  (and still is.)  We can't move in for another week and a half so we are in an extended stay hotel.  (if you know me-you know i despise hotels.  I'm much too big of a germ freak for all the nastiness that comes with a hotel but we found a really nice one with a kitchen and all-so I'm dealing. haha.

Stevie has started school and absolutely loves it (Thank You Lord!!!!!) 

 we are absolutely LOVING living here and can't wait to see what all it has to offer for our family.  

Sorry for the long stretch between blogs but things have been SO hectic.  I will be back with another post soon though :)